loved first

I remember the first time Brian told me that he loved me, and I remember my response. I said, "There is a part of me that loves you too." Gosh I was harsh! At that time in my life, I did not want to say something that I was not sure I meant. A couple days later, I thought about him walking around, loving me and thinking that he was not loved back. It killed me; and that is when I realized that I loved him too. I needed him, and it almost made me sick inside. The next time he said, "I love you," I said it back.

There is another man that loved me first--Jesus. It kills me to think that He, too, could be missing my love. He is crazy about us, and He thinks about us all the time. I want Him to know that I love Him too--it's not one-sided. To think that I could miss out on Him makes me sick inside. I need Him in my life. I'm so glad He pursues us and loves us first!

"We love Him because He first loved us." 1 John 4:19